my ramblings... just bear with it!

Monday, December 29, 2008 | wardah bajrai


Anak kecil itu menutup telinganya,
matanya dipejam rapat-rapat,
hati kecilnya terus berdoa
tanpa henti
kehangatan dari pelukan siibu masih terasa.
kemudian,
dentuman besar menggegar sekelian alam,
dirinya terasa begitu ringan,
seakan berada diawangan-awangan,

Tapi,
dia masih tidak tegar membuka matanya
kerana dia pasti,
pandangannya akan ditutupi dengan merah darah
yang bersemi di segenap bumi bertuah ini
tubuhnya tiba-tiba terasa sejuk
rasa kehangatan dari pelukan ibu telah hilang
dia kaget,
"mana ibu?," jerit hati kecilnya
perlahan-lahan matanya dibuka
asap dan api bersatu di mana-mana
tanah bertukar menjadi sungai darah
"tapi ibu masih tiada"

Dalam jerit pekik mereka yang lain
dia menangkap satu suara
"suara ibu itu," terletus bicara dari bibir mungilnya
dicarinya arah suara itu
melangkahi tubuh-tubuh hancur
langkahnya dipercepat

Nun di suatu sudut
kelihatan tubuh siibu terduduk lesu
keringatnya sudah menjadi merah
matanya terpejam rapat
Namun,
mulutnya masih basah dengan Nama Yang Maha Kuasa
tangan ibu dipegang dan dicium
"ibu, bangun ibu!"
rintih si anak kecil
dalam kepayahan, siibu bersuara

"Janganlah engkau mengira bahawa orang-orang yang gugur dijalan Allah itu mati, bahkan mereka itu hidup disisi Tuhannya dengan mendapat rezeki" -Ali-Imran:169

Disaat habisnya lafaz itu, siibu pun menghembuskan nafasnya yang terakhir
dan sianak kecil itu
bangun menadah tangan
dan berikrar

"Ya Tuhanku, perginya ibuku hari ini
adalah permulaan bagiku
untuk berjuang di jalanmu...."


-wardah_albajrai-

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PETUA

Thursday, December 11, 2008 | wardah bajrai

Dari e-mail .. menarik terutamanya petua-petua tertentu....

Petua-petua di bawah ini adalah petua turun temurun yang diceritakan oleh rakan-rakan. Aku kumpul dan compile jadi satu, senang nak rujuk kemudian hari. Mungkin ada yang dah pernah mengamalkannya. Apa salahnya kita berkongsi.
Sebelum aku teruskan, ada satu pesanan. Kalau tak yakin, jangan ikut. Petua-petua ini tidak mendapat pengiktirafan dari badan-badan kecantikan dunia. Hanya mendapat ‘pengiktirafan’ dari nenek moyang sahaja. Amalkan di bawah risiko anda sendiri.

Kurangkan peluh di wajah

Basuh wajah hingga bersih kemudian lap hingga kering. Seterusnya ambil ketulan ais dan lumurkan ke wajah anda hingga beberapa minit. Tunggu sehingga kering dan kenakan solekan pada wajah seperti biasa. Peluh di wajah akan berkurangan dan wajah anda kelihatan bersih berseri-seri.

Buah pinang atasi kegemukan
Masalah gemuk dan badan berlemak memang merunsingkan. Ada cara untuk mengatasinya. Buah pinang muda yang lembut dibelah dua lalu dicuci sebersih-bersihnya. Masak air dalam belanga. Rebus pinang muda hingga mendidih. Biarkan air rebusan pinang muda sejuk sebelum meminum airnya. Kesannya anda rasa lebih mudah membuang air besar dan semua lemak di dalam perut akan keluar melaluinya.

Melembabkan wajah
Sepotong tembikai yang masak dan sejuk diperah untuk mendapatkan jusnya. Tapis dan simpan jus tembikai di dalam bekas. Pupuk perlahan-lahan hampas tembikai ke seluruh wajah dan leher. Biarkan sehingga kering lalu percikkan sedikit air sejuk. Petua ini dipercayai dapa melambatkan proses penuaan dan menjadikan kulit awet muda.
Nenas putihkan kulit
Ambil bahagian dalam nenas yang keras (palu) lalu digosokkan pada kulit badan. Bilas tubuh sebersih-bersihnya. Amalkan setiap pagi dan petang. Insya-Allah, kulit akan menjadi putih dan berseri.

Rambut selembut sutera
Untuk memperolehi rambut selembut sutera serta mudah disisir, amalkan cara ini. Sekiranya anda bercadang membasuh rambut pada keesokan hari, lurutkan rambut dengan minyak bijan sebelum tidur. Keesokan harinya syampu rambut dan bilas sehingga bersih. Lap rambut anda sehingga kering lalu dirapikan dengan menggunakan minyak bayi atau minyak zaitun. Jika anda berambut lurus, anda boleh menyikat terus rambut anda sebaliknya bagi anda yang berambut kerinting biarkan seketika barulah disikat agar rambut tidak terputus dan bercabang.

Hilangkan bulu ketiak
Tumbuk lumat 15 biji jintan putih bersama lima butir kapur barus. Campurkan sedikit minyak tanah lalu disapukan pada bahagian ketiak.. Lakukan beberapa kali. Insya-Allah, bulu ketiak akan hilang selepas mengulanginya beberapa kali.

Kulit cantik dan putih
Inginkan kulit cantik dan putih? Anda boleh lakukan sendiri di rumah tanpa perlu ke salun kecantikan. Caranya sangat mudah iaitu dengan hanya mengisarkan 1 cawan kelopak bunga mawar, 1 cawan kelopak bunga melur, 1/2 cawan oatmeal, 1 cawan susu putih, dan 1/2 cawan badam sehingga halus. Campurkan bahan yang telah dikisar ke dalam air mandian dan mandi seperti biasa. Seterusnya bersihkan tubuh anda dengan menggunakan air suam.
Selamat mencuba!
Wallahu a’lam.

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Yoga- Don't get emotional

Thursday, November 27, 2008 | wardah bajrai

Due to recent hiccups (yoga and pengkid), I think it's my call as a Muslim and as a Malaysian - who believes in equality and freedom to all races and religions in Malaysia- to share my inner thoughts regarding the much discussed issues. It hurts me when the Fatwas were(are) being ridiculed by certain parties and to see how people bickering on what I perceive as small issues. Take Yoga issue for instance. I cannot believe how close-minded certain people are when dealing with this issue. They got all emotional, attacking each other without anyone seems to be wise enough to come up with a solution. I mean, seriously, they are a lot more stuffs that need to be attended rather than fighting about ‘one type of exercise’.

To be honest, if you ask me, whether I think that the fatwa on yoga should be issued or not, I would say no. For me, a Fatwa only need to be issued when a REALLY serious issue/problem occurs and it could affect Muslims –directly or indirectly. A fatwa is a much-respected decree and shouldn’t be used easily to handle such a minor problem. But, when a fatwa is issued, every Muslim should adhere to it, without any protest- whether they like it or not. But like what Dr. Mahathir said, “Whether the Malays (Muslims) follow it or not, that is really their business”. As long as they are not complaining. What National Fatwa Council should do is telling and explaining to the Muslims about this issue first. They shouldn’t jump on the boat directly. Of course it will shock the people especially those who’re lack of knowledge and easily get mislead. Plus, the authority should have more faith on Muslims in Malaysia. They will not easily be influenced to change the religion just by learning Yoga.

Sometimes, I just don’t understand. They are people who always like to criticise every move made by the government. Though I’m not a big supporter of our local government, I choose to be pragmatic when it comes to this. First thing first, I think this issue was/is over-played by the medias- be it the medias who pro with the verdicts or those who're against it. I am also (honestly and sincerely) bewildered with the reactions from the non-Muslims. As far as I know, this fatwa is for Muslims only but we can see that many non-Muslim are against it and at the same time be angry with it. At this point,I have to agree once again to what Tun M has said when he was asked to give comment on this issue.

"KUALA LUMPUR, Nov 25 (Bernama) -- Former prime minister Tun Dr Mahathir Mohamad today urged the relevant parties not to turn the National Fatwa Council's decision to bar Muslims from practising yoga into a religious issue.

"If they (National Fatwa Council) believe it is wrong, then it is wrong. It is unfortunate that other people think that it is a slur on their religion. It is like saying Muslims should not eat pork, and it is not an insult to the Chinese. It is the same when Muslims cannot do yoga. It is not because they are insulting the Hindus.

"It is just that they should not do it. Whether the Malays follow it or not, that is really their business. Other people should not make it a religious issue. Like all other things forbidden among Muslims, it is not an insult to others.

"But people want to make an issue of this. I feel very sorry. Personally, I don't care very much if you stand on your head or stand on your feet. It is not as if by performing yoga you immediately become a non-Muslim."


And what our dearie Prime Minister has to say bout this…
“ Muslims can after all practice the Indian exercise regime, so long as they avoid the meditation and chantings that reflect Hindu philosophy” – for the first time, I agree with him.

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Unexpected Event..

Tuesday, November 25, 2008 | wardah bajrai

'every thing happened for a reason'- this what my friend told me. I, still in a state of shock, upon hearing a death of a person that I know. He was brutally beaten to death. Some people are waaay too crazy to done such inhumane act. But like I said before, maybe there is a 'hikmah' behind this incident. I just hope that it won't happen again. I feel sympathy to the victim, victim's family, victiom's fiance and the doers' families too. Future seems pretty bleak for them (except the victim). I just can pray that they will be strong and tough facing this unpredictable situation.

break*****

why do people willing to kill in the name-oh-so-call love?! That's not love, that's craziness!

link 1:

link 2:

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hip..hip..horray..

Friday, November 14, 2008 | wardah bajrai

School holiday is here! This is the time when all teachers will grin widely, and aim to forget all about school stuffs. time to rejuvenate! time to press the refresh button again! time to not be or act like teachers! time to be a normal human being again (yes, sometimes teachers need to transform themselves into unrecognized creatures due to students' attitude!)

To all teachers, happy hoooli-holiday! Do enjoy yourself! Do forget anything related to the word s.c.h.o.o.l!

.... and I'm grinning widely...uncontrollably...

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Forgive me..

Monday, November 03, 2008 | wardah bajrai

I had a friend, or a colleague I might say. She was 4 months pregnant when she was diagnosed with breast cancer. Doctors couldn’t do radiotherapy or chemotherapy because they didn’t want to affect the baby. Friends advised her to abort the baby but she refused. Friends talked to her husband with hope that he could advise his wife into abortion. Friends were surprised to learn that it was her husband who actually refused to allow his wife to do abortion with a reason- the embryo has become a complete fetus . Most friends blamed the husband for being selfish, ignorance, cold-hearted and compassionless. The husband remained calm. After few months, the baby was born, lifeless. A day after that, the mother died. I attended her funeral. I saw her final face. She looked very calm. So did the husband.

There are few things that I’ve learnt from my friend’s story. I, once blamed the husband too for his willingness to let his wife suffer just to save the baby, an attempt which failed at the end. I blamed him for I’m a woman who dislikes to see other woman suffers. So, being a sympathetic person who is driven with emotion, I blamed the husband. But soon, I realized, or remember, to be accurate, in Islam, there are few things that could never control. One of them is death. We could never predict the date and the time that we will meet our Creator. Maybe tomorrow and maybe after 50 more years. We, humans, will never know. So, if my friend, even if she aborts the baby but she is destined to die on that particular day, with or without the baby, she will die too- maybe less painful. So, I decided to retract all the blames. And according to Islam, InsyaAllah, she will be in heaven since she was willing to sacrifice for her own child. InsyaAllah.

Besides that, I also did realize that, when I heard about her death, one thing that straight away crossed my mind. did I ever badmouthed her before, did I ever talk behind her back before, did I ever ‘mengumpat’ her before? And I realized that if I ever did, I will be in sin forever since I could never ask for her forgiveness anymore. I was very afraid since I do know that ‘mengupat’ is considered one of the biggest sins in Islam. Since she was in morning session, and I in the evening, we were hardly talked. So, I was quite sure that I hadn’t talk bad about her. Plus she was always a good person.

The story about my friend here prompted me to do this thing- to ask forgiveness from all people. If I ever done anything wrong, if I ever said something bad; directly or indirectly, I apologize, sincerely from the deepest of my heart. I’m afraid if I couldn’t ask anymore if my time or your time has come.

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Syawal- month of.....?

Friday, October 17, 2008 | wardah bajrai


Syawal is always known as a month of forgiveness and celebration. and I do believe we also perceive Syawal as a month of food and eating. Strings of open houses, marhabans, countless jamuans that held during this month proved this claim. I have to say that I'd worked hard during ramadhan to shed few kilos from my plumpy figure but only to be frustrated when I gained a lot more kilos during Syawal. I blame not the food for it's my self control that I have trouble with. So now, I hope after the end of Syawal, I could restrain myself from consuming uncontrollable amount of food. But, oh, I forgot, December is just around the corner I do believe that the eating spree will continue since December always been a suitable month for annual lunch/dinner and kenduris. I guess food and me are really best friend..whether its Syawal or not.

xoxo---selamat hari raya---

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United Kingdom kids

Monday, October 13, 2008 | wardah bajrai

Two students from UK (united kingdom) enrolled in today. It was the hottest topic of the day. Students were (still are) ‘jakun’ since before this they never encountered with ‘malay mat saleh’. These two students although they’re Malay, they speak more like David Beckham.. first question asked by one of them- “teacher, can I get lost in this school?” with a distinguish accent. Teachers- especially Math and Science teachers are becoming anxious now.. comments like
- “malulah kalau dia betulkan grammar”
- “macam mana kalau dia ckap “teacher you said the word wrongly” and so on…

…. And I- merely a silent observer….

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Weekly recap

Tuesday, October 07, 2008 | wardah bajrai

Last 2 weeks….

- Monday
Nothing interesting happened. But wait, at night something did happen. A form 4 student threatened to kill herself. Reason- she can’t stand with the hostel’s rules. But, we suspected something else.. something fishy… she even said to her friend that she’s ready to get married now and if her family chooses not to accept her anymore, her boyfriend will accept her and she’s keep on wailing…. Erm…

- Tuesday.
At wee hour, the girl, ran from the hostel. The guard who was making morning round, saw her but didn’t manage to catch her. She was seen following a guy. When her mother was informed, she told us that that was her daughter’s “abang angkat”.
Erm…..

- Wednesday.
The girl was kicked out from the hostel and from the school. Served her right (bad-bad teacher)….

And….

Remember about the scrawny girl that I told before….. well, guess what, her father pulled her out from the school.. so, a future of 14 years old girl is officially ruined by her own father.. biological father…. erm…

And

A 14 years old student, cursed loudly at the school's counselor… she screamed the word c***i… she was suspended for a week later…. erm….

- Thursday
Form one student, came to school only to follow another older guy later. the guy was described as ugly and old by her fellow friends who saw the incident… called her mother… as usual … “saya ingatkan anak saya kat sekolah” …erm…..

This week..

Monday…
- confirmed… the girl… form one student..was raped… by that older guy.. and we was informed that the girl have known the guy three months ago… and we’re not sure whether it was the first time or…..

I luuuuuuuuuuurve my job soooooooooooo much…. Seriously…

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C.H.A.N.G.E.S

Sunday, September 07, 2008 | wardah bajrai

Changes are never easy to swallow. People who are willing to cross the waves of changes are brave people. Making changes is unnerving decision too. It requires continuous support and a deep sense of responsibility. It also can be very dreading for those who’re still afraid to embrace changes. But with constant self-reminder and the thought of wanting prosperity that can be shared by every layer of people, changes can provide satisfying outcomes. Nothing could trump the sweetness of these outcomes if they do come alive. I, merely an observer, sometimes become anxious to see the results of these changes. It’s normal, based on my humble opinion that an early stage of every change , commotions and nervousness happened. Voices of disagreement add spices to this hocus-pocus. But for me it is actually a signal of work-in-progress. Progressing toward a better life- based on the changes that had been dreaming for some time. During this critical time, we are not to chide and blame each other.

What I can say is – be consistent and tolerable; all sides. There’s nothing wrong to loosen certain ideologies in order to compromise with others as long as the main objective (s) of each side is (are) not affected. Don’t be selfish and greedy when it comes to power and allow not element of prejudice jeopardizes the still-fragile coalition. There is a side which is waiting to see the destruction of these c.h.a.n.g.e.s – they are eager to applaud even to minor damages. Do not allow them to break this tie. Compromise. All of you. Please assure us that we could taste the sweetness of the changes that we’ve longed for years……

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Inspiration..

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For the past few days- or weeks I might say, it seemed that I’d lost the ‘zeal’ to blog. So many things had happened and it clouded my thoughts. Though I looked comfortable accommodated, I was not very tranquil in my mind. Sometimes, there were indeed strings of words involuntarily built inside my head, but to on my computer and start typing… I was waaaay too sluggish.So, instead of corrupting my blog, I opted to dug out my ancient treasure when I stumbled with ‘this’






I read it, every word, every comment ....



until I opened the last page….



these words inspire me....


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SHE

Thursday, August 14, 2008 | wardah bajrai


She is 14 years old. She possesses a petit and scrawny body. Her pale complexion shows that she’s always in misery. She hardly talks, sometimes we can see a tiny smile decorated her innocent face and few times you can hear she mumbles unrecognized utterances. She is not a good student; if you look at her academic record. If you open her bag, only few grubby books will be found and malodorous smell will fill the space. She has few friends or perhaps none. During recess, she walks slowly to the canteen watching her classmates eat. To buy something, she hardly had any cent. When the bell rings, she goes back to her class with an empty stomach. Her face grows paler. She looks sick but when asked, she just shook her tiny head. She never irons her clothes. Her rumpled and yellowish uniform alienated her from her peers. Yet, she never complains. In class, when teachers teach, she looks blankly to the blackboard. She understands nothing. When the students are asked to do some exercises, she takes out her book and scribbles unreadable sentences and sometimes she draws unspecified pictures. She is alone all the time. Teachers try to help her, but whenever asked about her problems, she changes herself to a statue. Teachers give up. Teachers called her mother. Her stepmother picked up the phone. A stern voice with impolite tone heard. Teachers discussed about her ‘daughter’ problems. From her answers, teachers know that the ‘mother’ doesn’t care about the ‘daughter’. Teachers called the father, asking the father to come to school to discuss about his biological daughter’s problems. “I’m too busy” was the answer teachers get.

So, how can teachers help the pitiful student?

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Orang bawahan mula bertanduk..

Wednesday, July 30, 2008 | wardah bajrai

Malam ni aku cabut lagi dari asrama. Hehehe..but big boss didn’t know..this week, hanya satu malam je aku spend waktu kat hostel.. sometimes I feel pity to my roommate. But I told her, kalau malam me on duty and she- off duty, she can go back.. but she said never mind so it isn’t my fault right.. I don’t know why I couldn’t stand live in hostel…. I’m a homey person… ‘homey’ rasanya btol kot.. even during my university days, I went back almost every week.. just ask my friends..slalu je kene sound ngan mc yan… sori ek yan…. Teringat plak kata pengetua aku – semenjak dua menjak ni my boss’s face always 'appear walau tak diundang' in my dream.. menakutkan..

ok… she said this when she asked a.k.a forced me to stay at hostel.. when I said couldn’t stay at asrama coz my mom depends on me to do all the chores.. she said ‘kalau awak kahwin nanti pun tinggalkan rumah jugak kan…’’ btol jugak… homey mcm mana pun, sooner or later ….maybe…maybe I have to say good bye to mi casa but.. I think lama lagi….hopefully..

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A nice pic

Monday, July 28, 2008 | wardah bajrai

My uncle is a talented artist. He takes pic differently. This one, I just love it...

TRY CLICK ON THE PICTURE TO MAKE IT BIGGER..NICE..

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Bila orang bawahan mula melawan...

Sunday, July 27, 2008 | wardah bajrai

My boss is quite autocratic. She’d assigned me with two big tasks within a short period.

Friday- until 6.40 pm; got class. Later that night- 8.30p.m. until 1.00 got a program for asrama students. Tomorrow morning, 7.30am- 2.00pm another ‘bina sahsiah program’. Straight away after that got to teach as usual until 6.15 p.m. so, I went to see her to ask to be excluded from one of the programs.

Me- I hope you can excuse us – me and another warden- from the morning program since we think its too packed. Can u ask another teacher to replace us…

She – ala.. u two are still young . ‘penyapu baru’.. for sure you can do it.

Me – but puan, there’re lots of other teachers who’re free from any task. Please puan, just the morning task..

She – wardah, supposedly, not until you got confirm you cannot say no.. awak patut cakap ye je..your prestasi will be ruined – bear in mind that she’s the one who’s going to write my prestasi and indirectly she’s threatening me….. again…. And again..

- seriously I was/am fed-up with her keep on threatening me and others; non-confirmed teachers.

Me …losing my patience..

Me- puan although I have yet been confirmed, you cannot treat me like this..before this I never defied any of your order.. yes, I have to follow your order but you also have to be reasonable

Her – raising her voice one octave… ‘awk ni dah pandai melawan ek…

Me- tried to calm myself…not defying just stating my right..as my mom always told me to do so…

Her – your mother is not a teacher and you shouldn’t ‘mengadu’ whatever happened in school to her..

Me- she’s my mother and of-course I will tell her everything but puan, once again, I didn’t mean to defy your order, I just want you to consider…

The argument lasted for a few minutes..at last she said.. ‘I will consider it..’…finally but remember wardah.. 'jangan nk melawan je/….’ she said that with a 'tak puas hati' face/

Me – only this time puan..

Later that evening, during the meeting..she said in front of others…. ‘wardah awak ni berkira jugak ek buat keje…’

Me…. Malas dah nk layan..at least she knows now that she cannot ‘trample’ me easily now.. like I said before… ‘I will stand for my right’

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Nasib org bawahan

Wednesday, July 16, 2008 | wardah bajrai

2 minggu lepas. pengetua, penolong kanan, hem..panggil masuk bilik..
kesnya- 'merayu' aku jadi warden.. cis.. mula2 ckp baik2... bila je aku kata tak nak, mula la diorang guna kuasa veto..

'wardah, awk belum confirm lagi, nanti kalau nak confirm, prestasi saya tulis' dan pengetua aku pun tersenyum simpul -- ugutla tu
aku--- bengang gila, terus keluar bilik 'big' boss tu

2 minggu kemudian- pengetua nampak aku..wardah, mcm mana duduk asrama ... bleh tido
aku plak tersenyum- sebab aku tak masuk pun lagi..tapi aku tak ckapla..

tapi sekarang aku dah duduk..dah dua hari, mcm nak nangis je.. aku lagi nak nangis bila hari pertama aku duk sana, berkali2 ayah aku call...ngadu lapar, tak de org dah nak masak..siap nk belikan rotan untuk aku belasah budak asrama tu..

aku cakap ' abah nk suruh anak abah masuk paperke...' dengan selamba ayah aku reply..
'biar, tak yah jadi warden lagi' .. sayu aku..nampak sangat ayah aku yang lembut tu sanggup jadi violent sebab rindu kat aku...

mak aku lagi best, janji nk tepon ppd..nak complain..maklumlah bilik ppd tu mcm bilik bestfriend dia..

hari ni aku cabut dari asrama... aku dah x peduli lagi pasal prestasi aku... rezeki kan kat tangan Allah...

lupa plak..masa aku kene panggil oleh tiga big boss tu, sempat lagi pengetua aku tanya, wardah, balik umrah ni takde ke kurma ke kismis ke utk saya... aku- dah la bengang, minta2 lagi plak '' sorila puan, budget tak cukup''

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a must see

Sunday, July 13, 2008 | wardah bajrai

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shopaholic..

Wednesday, July 09, 2008 | wardah bajrai

Not enough being an ardent fan of shopaholic series, I've become Rebecca Bloomwood now. After throwing lots and lots of money on my every-weekend-vacations (cameron, teluk batik, langkawi..), I had only few ringgits left with me. though I'm totally broke, I couldn't stop myself to buy another shoe today..now, how am I going to survive until 25th July (payment time).. petrol....food...guess, puasala bulan ni... I'm totally a spendthrift.. and now I'm a vacation-sucker too..

broken now but still plan to go somewhere else next month....an interesting place..


hopefully..

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Trip 27-29 Jun

Thursday, July 03, 2008 | wardah bajrai







































teluk batik -lumut- cameron highlands..
this weekend..... perlis and perhaps langkawi too
'life's a journey, keep on walking and never stop'






















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Teacher story - being sensitive

Sunday, June 22, 2008 | wardah bajrai

I am a sensitive person. Cry easily- reason why my sister hates watching sad movies with me. I blatantly sympathize to other people and easily get hurt or be offended by what people said. That’s my numero uno weakness. I’ve tried ways to mend this problem but until now, I am a failure.

Maybe not totally a failure, since now after being a teacher for more than a year, I can say that I’ve becoming too-soft-hearted-person no more. My students teach me to become what I am today. I teach five classes filled with students from diverse background and attitude. Some students are saintly good, but some- evil than devil. Their words, like sharp knife thrusts straight to your delicate heart. Utterances such as…………

‘cikgu ni jahatla, saya tak suka cikgu…’

‘ala cikgu ni, asyik membebel je……….’

‘asyik suruh tulis je, boringla…..’

….. and many more…..

- if two years back, upon hearing words like this, I would run to the bathroom and cry like a hopeless baby but now, I didn’t feel a thing… except sometimes it does hurt, a little- just like a bee-sting. That’s it. For I know, the next day, they will forget everything that they’ve said and when they see me, they will wave happily while cry out loud ‘ teacher la yang paling la best’ or if I dress up a bit ‘ teacher la paling cun’ – betul! And I would smile and forgive them…

But, a ‘good crier’ – a title I wish to preserve…

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Pilgrimage part 2

Sunday, June 15, 2008 | wardah bajrai

Before I went to Mecca, I got lots of advices...reminded me to be careful with my words and actions while in the holy site. They said, in Mecca whatever you said or did, you will be paid--cash (meaning you will get punished immediately). These advices at times, scared me for I know I am a person with sins. I was afraid that I will be punished there. But, at the same time, I also believe that God is Forgiven and Merciful. He knows what inside our heart. with that believe, I went to Mecca with aims.. to clean my murky mind and heart. To submit myself fully to God. To think about nothing but only God. But, a human I am, and its human's nature to go against most of the good things and to broke promises. I notice that its wrong for me to set unattainable goals like above for I'm not ready yet and to be honest I don't know when I would be ready. Only Allah knows. My dad said to me, a month before that: "its wrong to think that you want to change yourself only when you're in Mecca. and to do all the good things, to submit yourself to God only when you're there. The truth is, you must be prepared before that. months before that. you have to cleanse you soul and change your hedonistic lifestyle, and try to get nearer to God before you go."

But, stubborn me, I did not take the advice seriously. I have to say, its true that I felt calmer there, I felt that I can pray with tranquil heart there, I felt more secure there but I regret that I couldn't fully submit myself to God, and to think about nothing but Allah.. It seemed that my sins hindered me. So, I hope next time, when I got the chance to go there again, I can be more prepared; physically and mentally. If God's willing...

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Kisah 3 Beruang

Wednesday, June 11, 2008 | wardah bajrai


sebenarnya bukan 3, kalau campur mak nya..4 la beruang.. mak beruang dia leader...
it all started bila kitaorang masuk plane from kl to karachi..excited...cari la tempat duduk my sister 1 24 A, sister 2- 24 C, me - 24 D, sister 3- 24-E --- the seats' numbers.. cari punya cari..sampailah..tiba 2 tempat duduk kami dipenuhi oleh 4 beruang dengan muka selamba nye. me-'excuse me, these are my place my my sisters' '. mother beruang - 'boleh tak u all cari tempat lain, anak2 makcik nak duduk skali la.. me- furious-- called the steward, showed him my ticket and insisted that i wanted to sit there, with my sisters. the steward, to the beruangs - sorry, please move to your own seats please.. the beruangs- dengan muka tak puas hati pun terpaksa la berpisah. me- smile triumphantly! hahahahahaah!

well2, that's not the end....

In Mecca, sometimes we traveled by bus. One time, my sisters and I decided to 'cop seat belakang sekali. so, dengan embernya, we all, as fast as we could naik bus and memilih tempat mengikut citarasa. Suddenly, my mom came and said 'tadi umi dengar the 3 beruangs bising tempat dia kene amik -of course lah my mom tak panggil tiga beruangs. we---'hello, ada nama ke seat2 atas bas ni. so we decided to ignore and not too long after that, mother beruang came to us, 'boleh pindah tempat tak, anak2 makcik nak duduk sini la'. we- stubborn sisters- ignored her. finally, she gave up.

cerita blom habis lagi...

On the way back to kuala lumpur,once again- deja vu.. when i reached at my seat, guess who 'dengan selamba' sat on my seat? yes.. the beruangs!!!!! ish!!! i ask them to move..politely.. but this time around father beruang said 'boleh tak nak tukar tempat, satu depan ni je satu lagi, depaaan sana tu.. cis.. I was about to call the the steward, once again before my kind-hearted dad interfered...'ada masalah ke? father beruang - 'boleh tukar tempat?' my dad- 'boleh, tak apa, wardah duduk je depan'. me- eeiiiiihhhhh!!!!! beruangs!!!!!!!!!

Throughout the journey, i cursed them...habis semua pahala2 wat umrah!

MORAL: bila naik flight..berhati2 la dengan beruang2 pencuri tempat!

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Pilgrimage

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Some people say that we only go to Mecca when we are mature enough, so that we can 'beribadah sepenuh hati'. Me- fortunate enough to got the opportunity to visit the holiest site for Muslims before I get older. Praise to the Almighty. It was a very memorable journey. Many fortunate and unfortunate events had happened- which i see it as tests from God.

I can describe my two-week journey as a journey of purification and self-reflection. To be honest, its not easy to live in a country where the average temperature was almost 44 degrees. To walk under the scorching sun requires a tough body and mind. At times, I almost gave up but to think back that this pilgrimage was not cheap and I had to cross more than 2,000km to be there, I forced myself to be strong.

Throughout the journey, I did write sometimes, just to fill the free time especially while on the plane. tapi banyak merapu je la. From the not so scrumptious food to the handsome stewards who served me (a girl will always be a girl!).

There's also a story about a family which my sisters and I labeled them as tiga beruang. why... later.. just to think about those 'tiga beruang', mendidih-didih darah.. so, I shall share the pieces sedikit demi sedikit..



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Umrah

Monday, May 26, 2008 | wardah bajrai


InsyaAllah, my family and I will go to Mecca tomorrow to perform umrah.. mohon maaf di atas segala keterlanjuran and mohon didoakan selamat pergi dan kembali... amin

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a d***n camp..

Thursday, May 22, 2008 | wardah bajrai

Seriously...


kenapa pihak pentadbir sukeee membuat decision di saat-saat akhir without consulting orang-orang dibawahnya. dan dengan sewenang-wenangya memberi tugas tanpa mengambil peduli agenda orang lain. me. planned to go to KL this weekend. but. my dearest senior teachers happily organizing a camp for the students- which is good since it is called as 'kem integrasi: (this integrasi issue is being debated everywhere). but. ayat power mereka " diharap cikgu-cikgu muda +bujang dapat memberi kerjasama sepenuhnya..termasuk tidor di khemah" (and menjadi pengawal tak bertauliah!) blimey! I have a plan already! -screamed. inside only lah..

So, perhaps i have to cancel my plan to go to KL this weekend. plan to escape the camp but since me- 'orang penting'- a 'no' is totally out of question. so friends, blame me not for I cannot attend the much awaited function. I don't know when can I see my friends again.. hopefully soon..

p/s: but actually, I have few plans on how to excuse myself..hope it will work!!(hehehe)


to A.U.. congrats! to Nees, i know yours is just around the corner..congrats too..

blimey!

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BIRO TATANEGARA

Tuesday, May 13, 2008 | wardah bajrai

I've just finished my BTN course (Biro Tatanegara). What an experience! Besides being brain-washed days and nights - they did try to cleanse your mind by instilling their ideologies almost every second!, I personally did enjoy the experience that I gained. Never in my mind thinking that one day I had to cross a muddy river and to do other rough activities continuously. My body was aching-until now but I didn't feel any regret. Its totally a valuable experience that I think I could never gain anywhere else.

I have to admit, 4 days there, it does change some of the ways of how I see things. If before this, I always being over-negative about certain things, now, I think I can see things from different angles. From now on, I will try not to be too judgemental and at the same time preserve my critical thinking. The one thing that I most regret while attending the course was my inability to express my thoughts and ideas freely. Being a person who loves to read and has some knowledge bout certain issues (hmmm), I felt frustrated for I cannot share whatever I have in mind due to the nature of the course. My inner self wanted to object some issues discussed and raised but my gut restrained me for I was afraid of being failed by them. What a coward! I hope they could be more flexible and open rather than being too 'berat sebelah' and skeptical.

Another thing, personaly, I pity the minorities. Most of the facilitors they liked to talk about Malay supremacy or Malay sovereignty in which sometimes they went overboard. I could see that most of these minorities they wanted to object but cowardice ruled their mind and my mind too. Everyone wants to pass this course and if it means you have to wear a mask, or pretend, then you should do it.

However, all in all I do enjoy it but if they ask me whether I want to go again, I'd rather pass. and for those who haven't gone, do prepare ; mentally and physically...

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Misinterpretation

Monday, May 05, 2008 | wardah bajrai

Seriously, I notice lately people alway interpret wrongly on whatever I write in which sometimes it scares me a lot- to write anything. If they realize that some writings are merely self-expression at that particular time - no more, no less . And I do appreciate when there are people who notice it but unfortunately, there are people who perceive it differently from my original motive...

Perhaps next time, I should be more careful on whatver I write so that people won't interpret it wrongly..seriously, i'm tired of explaining...

This message is dedicated to ais---

When we write, we need to follow our heart- this is what I believe la.., and sometimes we do follow our mind, but we rarely choose the later one. Or perhaps maybe its only me.. its up to us to decide. However, by using our mind, I sense that we were to be more polite, more immaculate and even become more restrictive in which i don't like personally. But I believe if we write anything from our heart, we will get a sincere piece..but..there is a con tagging along..our piece can be too personal or 'case sensitive' or people might understand it wrongly - my main point..in which I get a lot lately.. I'm not trying to be insensitive but regrettably, its hard to change something which defines you.. I understand by choosing to stay like this, I might hurt people or perhaps get wrong interpretation and I have to do a lot of explanation which is rather tiring- but I still will do it, but the good thing is, I can stay original.

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induksi..

Wednesday, April 16, 2008 | wardah bajrai

it is a must to every fresh goverment servant to attend an induction course. Basically, we have to prepare our body and mental for this 12-day torturing course.curently, i'm on the 7th day... i have another 7 days more to go..i'm so tired, mentally and physically..but .. because we got wireless connection here, the torture becaome slightly bearable.. to be honest, i did (d0) enjoy few moments from this course..for example; i manage to secure few new friends, learn how to dance-pocho-pocho, and a few other things.. it does enhance my knowledge on few things bout rules and regulations that we have to know and follow as goverment servants.. for those fellow friends who haven't gone for your induction... your time will come and seriously, eventhough its tiring...u still can enjoy the course..and remember at the end of the course, there will be an exam where u have to get least 50 marks to pass the course...urghhh!!

p/s: i'm writing this while one of the guests is busy explaining about ''what is 'dokumen rahsia kerajaan'"....

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TOLERATION AND MODERATION IN ISLAM

Tuesday, March 18, 2008 | wardah bajrai

- by Tun Dr. Mahathir Muhammad

"TOLERATION AND MODERATION IN ISLAM" I am deeply conscious of the honour of being invited to speak at this august and ancient seat of Islamic learning. I am aware that despite my efforts to learn about the teachings and practices of Islam, I am in the presence of those who are truly learned in the subject. I accepted this invitation because I hold very strongly to my religion and I regret the perceptions about it both by non-Muslims and Muslims which have lead to Islam and Muslims being vilified, being associated with unsavoury activities and even made fun of. All these perception and vilification are due not to Islam itself but to the interpretations given to it by Muslims and non-Muslims with vested interest, wanting to justify the wrongs that they have done or intend to do. Our religion is perfect but we are not perfect. It is our imperfections and refusal to adhere to the true teachings of Islam that has lead to the decline and to the unfortunate circumstance that Muslims worldwide are in today.


2. I would like to thank the University of Al-Azhar for inviting me to speak on the topic of "TOLERATION AND MODERATION IN ISLAM". This is a very pertinent topic given the fact that Islam as a religion and Muslims as a community are currently being equated with intolerance and extremism not just by non-Muslims but even by some Muslims of professedly liberal views.

3. Islam as preached and propagated by the Prophet, Muhammad s.a.w. is a tolerant and moderate religion. This is evident from many of the Prophet's sunnah, by his attitude towards those members of his family who did not embrace Islam, by his attitude and treatment of the peoples of Mekah, his former enemies when Mekah surrendered to him, by his injunctions against the ill- treatment of prisoners, of Muslims who had erred and even of apostates. In none of these was he extreme and rigid. In all he showed understanding, moderation and tolerance.

4. At no time did his tolerance and forebearance manifest themselves more than during the drawing up of the Treaty of Hudaibiyah. We know how the jahiliah citizens of Mekah ill-treated him and his followers, how they prevented the pilgrims from Medinah from performing the haj. We know too how arrogant were the Mekans when the treaty was drawn up, rejecting the inclusion of the Unity of Allah and the Prophethood of Muhammad in the text. His followers resented the behaviour of the jahiliah. They wanted to reject negotiation, to reject the words and the terms of the treaty. But the Prophet, Muhammad s.a.w. prevailed and accepted the text of the Treaty of Hudaibiyah and sealed it. He was not just being diplomatic and wise but he was showing the greatest degree of toleration and moderation even in his dealing with his bitter detractors and enemies. And we know what happened in the following year. He and his followers entered Mekah without much resistance by the citizens and they all eventually accepted Islam. He was magnanimous to them, even to Hendon who had eaten the liver of Saidina Hamzah at Uhud. And the behaviour of the Prophet at Mekah won over all the Arabs of the whole Peninsular so that they all embraced Islam and united into one ummah. From then on the spread of Islam as a faith and as the motivating spirit to build an empire could no longer be resisted. Such was the significance and the miracle wrought by moderation and tolerance for Islam and the ummah.

5. In case we still doubt that Islam enjoins us to be moderate and tolerant, doubt that the Prophet followed the injunctions of Islam when he was magnanimously tolerant and moderate to his followers and to his enemies, let us look at what the Quran says about moderation and tolerance in Islam. Surah Al-Mumtahinah, Verse 8 says, " Allah forbids you not, with regard to those who fight you not for (your) Faith nor drive you out of your homes, from dealing kindly and justly with them: for Allah loveth those who are just. " Surah Ali-'Imran, Verse 159 says, " It is part of the Mercy of Allah that thou dost deal gently with them. Wert thou severe or harsh-hearted, they would have broken away from about thee: so pass over (Their faults), and ask for ((Allah)'s) forgiveness for them; and consult them in affairs (of moment). Then, when thou has Taken a decision put thy trust in Allah. For Allah loves those who put their trust (in Him). "

6. The Constitution of Medina encouraged cooperation and solidarity among Muslims, Christians, Jews and others. The Constitution which was put in writing ensured freedom, including the freedom of worship, equality and justice for all. Thus in Surah Al-Kafirun, the non-believers were told, " To you your religion, and to me my religion. "

7. It was the same teachings of Islam which united the Ansar and Muhajirin into "an ummah distinct from all other peoples of the world", but he also referred to the Jewish clans who allied themselves with him, as "an ummah along with the Believers", even though each continued to practise its own faith.

8. One of the most significant teachings brought by the Prophet to the Arab tribes was the futility and the wrongness of the eternal feuds. We know that before Islam these tribes fought against each other continuously over some slight or quarrel that they had had in the distant past. They had even forgotten the reasons for their quarrels but for generations they would remain enemies and would attack each other whenever they met. They were wholly consumed by tribal loyalties and hatred of each other.

9. This fanatical unquestioning espousal of tribalism and a tribal cause through generations can only result in wasteful fighting, disunity and weakness. Islam condemns fanaticism which invariably leads to and is associated with extremism, lack of moderation and tolerance. Certainly one of the greatest achievements of the Prophet and of Islam was to bring the tribes together, to give them a new common and sensible loyalty and to enable Islam to spread eventually worldwide. In Surah Ali-'Imran Verse 103, inter alia Allah says, "And remember with gratitude Allah's favour on you, For ye were enemies And He joined your hearts in love, so that by His Grace, Ye became brethren".

10. The loyalty to Islam was not fanatical. It was based on reason, on the knowledge that unity brought strength and enabled success to be achieved. It was a loyalty that tolerated differences even in the practice of Islam. It was not rigid. Only if the articles of faith, the acceptance of the one Allah Subhanahu wa Ta'ala and that Muhammad is his Prophet are rejected is a person no longer Muslim. Today there are literally millions of non-practising Muslims but they are still people of the faith because they have not rejected the Oneness of Allah Subhanahu wa Ta'ala and that Muhammad is his Prophet. We accept them as our brothers praying that one day their hearts will open and they will be practising Muslims once more. And indeed today we see millions who were forced to give up Islam or had lived in an anti-Islamic environment returning to Islam with such great ardour, fighting against terrible odds in order to protect their belief.

11. But do Muslims follow the teachings of Islam regarding tolerance and moderation? The answer is "Yes". The vast majority of Muslims throughout the world are faithful to the injunctions of Islam to be tolerant and moderate. But in any society, in any grouping and in any religion there will be the 'black sheep', the exceptions to the rule.

12. There are Christian extremists more cruel and intolerant than Muslim extremists. We see them in Bosnia-Herzegovina, raping, torturing and killing fellow Slavs simply because these Slavs are Muslim. Historically of course, the Spanish Inquisition which lasted 300 years exhibited an extreme degree of intolerance on the part of Catholic Christians. In Ireland religious intolerance among Christians resulted in a long-drawn out war. And the Christian militia in Lebanon wrecked that jewel of a country.

13. We see intolerance in the Jewish state of Netanyahu and some of the Jewish religious parties of Israel. Forgetting their own oppression by the Christians of Europe, they oppress the Arabs of Muslim and Christian faiths and confine them to ghettoes in the same way that they were themselves treated by Hitler's Germany.

14. The Hindus and the Buddhists are also given to extremism leading to intolerance and oppression of others not of their own faith.

15. No one has a monopoly of tolerance and moderation. In any society, in any religion there will be aberrations. We are tempted to label everyone in a society with an abberant minority with the same label. And having labelled we then proceed to act in a manner that reflects our prejudices towards the whole of that society.

16. Within the Islamic community, the ummah, we must admit that we have a fair share of aberrations, of extremist intolerance and immoderation despite the fact that these are against the teachings of Islam. And as is usual we, the Muslims, are all tarred with the same brush by our detractors. The unfortunate thing is that quite often the extremist and the intolerant have gained such power over their own communities that they are able to influence almost everyone with their perception of things. And so among non-Muslims, in particular the ethnic Europeans, there is almost total belief that Muslims and terrorists are one and the same thing. They perceive Islam as a religion which preaches intolerance and immoderation no matter how we try to explain that it is not, that it is due to misinterpretations, that it is as much an aberration as the Inquisition was to Christianity, as much as the cruelties and intolerance of the Serbs are not typical of the Eastern Orthodox Church. This unfortunate perception of Islam persists.

17. Do we need to worry about how others, in particular our detractors perceive Islam and the Muslims? I think we should worry. When the Prophet received his wahyu, the first followers came from among those who see in Islam a means of salvation. The Jahilliah community was intolerant and cruel and given to infanticide, to taking innumerable wives of dubious legality, to ill-treatment of slaves and servants and prisoners, to oppression of the rich on the poor, the strong on the weak. Islam preached salvation of the oppressed, just laws, abolition of infanticide, limitation of wives to four, equality between the wives and a host of other teachings which would create a better society. And so the oppressed turned to Islam and Bilal the oppressed slave was among the first to accept Islam.

18. Whether we want to spread Islam or not, we have a duty to explain Islam to Muslims and non-Muslims alike. We have to explain it in such a way as to reduce the wrong perception of our religion that is now common worldwide. But the best explanation, the most convincing argument is through demonstrating visibly the true teachings of Islam with regard to tolerance and moderation, and the rejection of fanaticism and extremism.

19. Islamic justice is based on equitability between crime and punishment; roughly exemplified by the aphorism, 'an eye for an eye'. But what is less known but nevertheless equally strong a principle is the stress on moderation and the quality of mercy in the dispensation of justice.

20. The Quran repeatedly enjoins us to be considerate and merciful. It gives the person wronged the right to demand equity, to demand an eye for an eye, a life for a life but it also provides for compensation in lieu of , for forgiveness and mercy. An eye for an eye is not mandatory. It merely evaluates the crime and the appropriate punishment. In Surah Al-Maaidah, Verse 45, Allah says, " We ordained therein for them: Life for life, eye for eye, nose for nose, ear for ear, tooth for tooth, and wounds equal for equal. But if any one remits the retaliation by way of charity, it is an act of atonement for himself. And if any fail to judge by (the light of) what Allah hath revealed, they are (No better than) wrong-doers. " 21. Allah is Merciful and Compassionate. Can we really believe that He does not want us to be merciful and compassionate? To be merciful and compassionate requires tolerance and moderation. Certainly the single- minded quest for revenge, the consuming desire to inflict upon our enemies what they have inflicted upon us is not in keeping with being Merciful and Compassionate.

22. If we are to correct this image of Islam, if we want to banish the perception that Muslims are implacable enemies, intolerant, immoderate and extreme then we must demonstrate a willingness to forego the desire for revenge, for unmitigated violence. Killing each other and killing others in order to emphasise the depth and strength of our commitment to our struggle may succeed in drawing attention to our grievances, but they will not lead to the success of our struggle. We know that the more the injustice and the oppression that are heaped upon us, the greater will be our determination to fight on. Similarly the more we inflict the same on our enemies, the more determined they will be. And the greater will be their resistance. We will not win that way unless of course it is not winning or success that we are after but the desire to seek revenge for the sake of revenge, to satisfy our animal desires.

23. It is therefore imperative that we cultivate the values of tolerance and moderation that are enjoined upon us by our faith. We know that the Quran says that failures and wrongs are due to us and that success comes from our Creator, Allah Subhanahu wa Ta'ala. So far we have failed. We have failed to regain our past glory. We have failed to protect ourselves. We have failed even to keep up our strength and our knowledge. All these are due to our own faults, faults which emanate from our failure to adhere to the teachings of Islam as contained in the Quran and the verified Hadith. It is not due to Allah Subhanahu wa Ta'ala, to what He has ordained for us.

24. But there will be those who believe that they are truly following the teachings of Islam because they perform all the rituals and more, because of their superficial appearances being compatible with what they think is the image of Islam. I do not question the strength of their faith. But Islam is not just about rituals and appearances. Islam is a way of life, Ad- din. And the way of life is reflected not just in religious piety but also in those characteristics of tolerance and moderation in all that we do.

25. How can we pray and then go forth to seek revenge against fellow Muslims by slaughtering them? They may not pray as much as we pray, but can we really know whether they have gained less merit than we have? Surely only Allah Subhanahu wa Ta'ala will know who adheres more to the teachings of Islam, we or they. Can we then take it upon ourselves to pass judgement on the Islam of others, to punish these people and in the process weaken Muslims and allow those who are against Islam and the Muslims to triumph over us? How many times have Allah Subhanahu wa Ta'ala repeated in the Quran that we may not assume that those whom we condemn are less pious than us, that they may be even more Muslim than us. Our condemnation of others is in fact a reflection of our intolerance and that certainly is against the teachings of Islam. Verse 11 of Surah Al-Hujuraat, makes this quite clear and I quote: " O ye who believe! Let not some men among you laugh at others: It may be that the (latter) are better than the (former): Nor let some women laugh at others: It may be that the (latter) are better than the (former): Nor defame nor be sarcastic to each other, nor call each other by (offensive) nicknames: Ill-seeming is a name connoting wickedness, (to be used of one) after he has believed: And those who do not desist are (indeed) doing wrong. "

26. Islam is a pragmatic religion. It is not meant as an imposition on the followers. It is not meant to bring hardship on them. Thus In Surah Al-Baqarah, Verse 256, Allah says, " Let there be no compulsion in religion. " and in Surah Al-Maaidah, Verse 6, Allah says, " O ye who believe! When ye prepare for prayer, wash your faces, and your hands (and arms) to the elbows; Rub your heads (with water); and (wash) your feet to the ankles. If ye are in a state of ceremonial impurity, bathe your whole body. But if ye are ill, or on a journey, or one of you cometh from offices of nature, or ye find no water, then take for yourselves clean sand or earth, and rub therewith your faces and hands, Allah doth not wish to place you in a difficulty, but to make you clean, and to complete his favour to you, that ye may be grateful. "

27. We know that not all Muslim communities live in countries with a population one hundred percent Muslim. Today more and more Muslims are living in non-Muslim countries, in non-Muslim communities. There are things that a hundred percent Muslim community can do which cannot be done in a community in which the Muslim majority is small, or indeed in which they are a minority. Those Muslims living in a purely Muslim country must remember that in this shrinking world anything that is done in one Muslim community or country will affect the lives of other Muslim communities.

28. We may, in a largely Muslim country be intolerant and oppressive towards the few non-Muslims in our midst. But we must always remember that this may affect the lives of those Muslims who make up the minority in another country. We would not like these Muslim minorities in so many countries to suffer because of our actions against the non-Muslims in our midst.

29. True sometimes even when we are fair and just, tolerant towards the non-Muslims in our midst, Muslim minorities in other countries are still oppressed. What did we do to deserve the atrocities against Muslims in Bosnia-Herzegovina and elsewhere? But the ways of Allah are beyond us to reason. What we do know is that we are far from living up to the way of life as enjoined by our religion. We pick and choose those teachings which can justify our desires and disregard those which would show that we are wrong.

30. In Malaysia, Muslims are in the majority, but only just. More than 40 percent of our population is made up of non-Muslims. Under British rule, the races were separated from each other physically and by occupation. The separation was augmented by religious differences, the Malays being entirely Muslims, the Chinese Buddhist or Taoist and the Indians Hindus. Clearly all the elements for conflict were there when independence forced the races to come into contact with each other.

31. But the tolerance and moderation of Malaysia's first Prime Minister Tunku Abdul Rahman brought the ethnic-based political parties under one coalition, the Alliance. The racist extremists left the Alliance to form alternative parties. But the majority stayed with Tunku Abdul Rahman and the resulting coalition won the first election held under British rule and subsequent post-independence elections. In 1969 race riots broke out because political unity was not enough to overcome extreme economic disparities. The violence and the killings did not last long. Within a year the leaders, especially the Muslim leaders calmed their people by drawing up a policy to correct economic imbalances. Since then there has been no race riots of any kind in Malaysia. Attempts by extremists, both Muslims and non- Muslims to stir up feelings of intolerance and hatred failed. The Government curbed any tendency towards religious extremism through judicial and psychological persuasion.

32. Today Malaysia is stable and peaceful. Not even attempts by foreign elements to stir up racial and religious extremism, to destabilise the economy and recreate economic disparities between the races have succeeded in bringing the forces of intolerance and immoderation back.

33. As a result Malaysia has been able to develop fast. The economic wealth, the technological knowhow, the administrative skills have grown among all, including the Muslims. Today the Muslims are as capable in administration, politics, science and technology, in business and in industry as are the non-Muslims.

34. Malaysia's Muslims believe in moderation and tolerance because that is what our religion tells us. That is reciprocated by the majority of the non-Muslims. Indeed they actively support the Muslims in order to enable them to achieve the same degree of development and success. Tolerance and moderation have therefore paid off handsomely for the Muslims in Malaysia. We see not just a religious dogma in the teachings of Islam but truly a good way of life.

35. Tolerance and moderation is clearly a part of the teachings of Islam. If we ignore these teachings then we will not only be sinning but we will be depriving ourselves of the benefits of Islam. If because of this we fail, if we become weak and oppressed, we have only ourselves to blame.


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Puisi Pagi Ahad: Tuhan, Terima Kasih Memberi Kami...

Sunday, March 09, 2008 | wardah bajrai

A simple poem by Faisal Tehrani....

(Untuk mereka yang tidak mahu kalah dan putus asa, mereka yang tidak mahu menerima kekerasan sebaliknya kelembutan, untuk mereka yang rebah tetapi bangkit kembali, untuk mereka yang tidak mahu dihambakan, dan meraikan kemerdekaan; untuk Malaysia)

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Tuhan, terima kasih memberi kami rasa percaya, bukan ragu
Tuhan, terima kasih memberi kami rasa nekad, bukan gentar
Tuhan, terima kasih memberi kami pengorbanan, bukan kerehatan
Tuhan, terima kasih memberi kami kerendahan diri, bukan keangkuhan
Tuhan, terima kasih memberi kami keikhlasan, bukan kepura-puraan
Tuhan, terima kasih memberi kami kehalusan, bukan ketakburan
Tuhan, terima kasih memberi kami dugaan, bukan pengabaian
Tuhan, terima kasih memberi kami amanah, bukan kecelakaanTuhan, terima kasih memberi kami kesungguhan, bukan kelekaan

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Tuhan, terima kasih memberi kami kebajikan, bukan bencana
Tuhan, terima kasih memberi kami keselamatan, bukan kesulitan
Tuhan, terima kasih memberi kami keamanan, bukan kehuru-haraan
Tuhan, terima kasih memberi kami kemakmuran, bukan kemelaratan
Tuhan, terima kasih memberi kami ganjaran, kerana pahala-Mu terlalu melimpah
Tuhan, terima kasih memberi kami tangisan ini...
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Malaysians have spoken!!

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"They have tasted their own medicine!! and they couldn't even smile now!"

Malaysians are not stupid. You can deny our rights, our voice but you couldn't deny our power. together, we're strong. eat back everything that you have said arrogantly! now, let us show you the way out and you can sleep all the way too (since you loove to fall asleep!!!) we are tired of your conspiracy, you stupidity and how you spend our money on your so-called for-rakyat-projects. I pity you!. you make us racist, by threatening us!. You tried to fool us, you control all the mainstream medias-hoping that rakyat will buy with all your propaganda, and you're too pompous. but, you forgot, we didn't rely on ur medias now..we have our own 'channels'. we're post-2000 voters and we're clever enough to see the truth. I am Malay, a Muslim but without any regret or hesitation voted for a DAP candidate. and I'm proud of it! Please, learn something for this 'tsunami'. please, don't be arrogant, you wanted to recapture one but instead you lost another four. our prayers have been answered! Alhamdulillah..


Small Wave Turns To Political Tsunami PDF Print E-mail
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KUALA LUMPUR, March 9 (Bernama) -- What was first thought as a small wave has turned into a political tsunami following the outcome of this general election.

Barisan Nasional (BN) lost four states -- Penang, Kedah, Selangor and Perak -- apart from failing to wrest Kelantan.BN component parties, especially Gerakan, MIC, PPP and MCA, lost heavily in their attempt to grab parliamentary seats. Political analyst Associate Professor Dr Mohamed Mustaffa Ishak believed national issues such as the country's leadership, family involvement in politics and business, Hindraf and price hike were the main factors that contributed to the results. It seemed that urban Chinese voters were not happy with such issues and the urban Malay also followed the trend. He said the choice of candidates, Umno internal bickering and poor BN machinery and strategies have also contributed to the scenario.

"The rakyat has now translated their votes into real protest," he added.

An abnormal high percentage of silent voters of between 35 and 40 percent compared to the normal average of 20 percent swayed most of their votes for the opposition. Mohamed Mustaffa said the outcome of this general election was worse than the 1969 general election. Although BN secured only 51 per cent majority to form the federal government in 1969, the only state lost then was Kelantan compared to five states this time, he said. He believed that BN did not expect this kind of defeat as the coalition thought they were encountering a "small wave" only in Penang and some resistance when trying to capture Kelantan.

"They underestimated the rakyat's strong sentiments towards the national issues that turned into tsunami," he said. He believed that the opposition too did not expect such a big win.

Mohamed Mustaffa said Umno counterparts such as Gerakan, PPP, MIC and MCA were hard hit by the national issues. "They lost not because of their own problems but the national issues and the contributing factors," he said. In Penang, the failure of Tan Sri Dr Koh Tsu Koon to groom a good successor and to come up with a credible line-up also added to the changing political landscape in the state, according to Mohamed Mustaffa.

"This has created an uncertain situation in the state," he said.

"The message is loud and clear. The rakyat want to see changes... all sorts of changes."

Umno, Mohamed Mustaffa said, needed to re-evaluate itself and carry out a major overhaul in order to retain its relevancy.

"If not Umno will be wiped out in the next general election," he said.

As at 4.30am, election results are still being updated and BN has yet to secure the two-third majority. BN should thank Sabah and Sarawak for delivering seats as expected and saving the coalition from further humiliation, said Mohamed Mustaffa.

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we need to apologize

| wardah bajrai

‘I’m scared la warda’

‘why?’

‘I was so angry just now and I pulled the student’s ear’

‘I afraid that the parents will come and complain”

I had this conversation with my colleague on our way to punch out the card. I could see from her face that she was nervous. She forced a smile while talking to me. I can understand her feeling. We, teachers always face tough situation like this- our hands are tied. No one wants to protect us. Whatever happen to the students, its our fault. What actually happened to my friend was she subconsciously pulled a student’s ear. I know, she won’t do it on purpose as she knows the consequence. But, we are only human and our patience also have limit. Students nowadays are not like us before. They are rude, stubborn and big-head. To make things worst, they are well aware that they are ‘untouchable’ – so they feel that they can do whatever they want. Us, on the other hand, have to bear with all these with patience. We shall not be angry although they student call names at us, throw to us their wicked look and many more.

Than goodness, the parents didn’t come. Or else she has to trouble herself to give explanation. And seek for forgiveness..

Another story, also a friend of mine. She’s young, pretty and kind. She teaches Maths. She also a soft-spoken person. She hardly scolded her students and most students liked her. One day we were shocked when a parent called our evening supervisor.to complain. He said that his daughter had strained her foot. This ‘situation’ happened because she had to do ear-squatting for countless time. And our shock doubled when he said that she was punished by her maths teacher(the kind, loved teacher). We never expected and when the teacher was confronted, she said she had to punish since the girl hadn’t do any of her work. To make things worst, the girl without any qualm, did another teacher’s work while she was teaching. But the teacher insisted that she never wanted to hurt anyone. She just couldn’t find ways to punish this troubled student. She cannot touch her, so what she could think of only ear-squatting. I, personally know the student as I am her form teacher. I know what kind of students she is.. ‘desperate- for- attention-kind’. And until now I am not fully convinced that the ear-squat had hurt her foot. But my friend, after the accident, had been in remorse state for weeks, she hardly talked to anyone, she became de-motivated, never smiled and had became a passive person. She even had to apologize to the ‘victimized’student. Yes, APOLOGIZE! NOWADAYS, TEACHER HAD TO APOLOGIZE TO HER STUDENT! Damn!

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sekilas pandang..

Friday, January 25, 2008 | wardah bajrai

susahkan bila kita terpaksa menidakkan sesuatu yang kita betul2 nak.. sesuatu yang we could never replace but still we have to say NO since we don't want to be a bad person... memang sakit bila benda tu ada di depan mata tapi de kerana rasa tanggungjawab...we just let it slips away... hard and very hurtful....

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We need to reform our system!

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Seriously…lately I’ve been posting things which are not directly related to me since I haven’t had the mood to talk bout myself. There’s nothing much to write. Everyday, things go the same for me. I have to deal with different sorts of situations in which eventually makes me realize that life is not always beautiful. Since most of my hours in a day I spend in school, I cannot help myself to write about all the fortunate and unfortunate events that happened in my dearest school.

Yes, schools have re-opened for almost a month now. So, its normal for me and other teachers like me to be extra-ordinary busy handling all the not-suppose-to-be-our-job works.. All the clerical works that wasted most of our precious time. But since the government pays my salary, and as an obedient gov-servant, I’ll do my works with ‘open heart’(though sometimes- and most of the time, I do complain), but so far, I’ve finished all the works assigned – a pat for me. And being a teacher gives me the opportunity to discover a lot of things that happened around me that I’ve never realized before. Things that manage to open my sleepy eyes. Among the things are:-

1) School fees- when the government announced last year that all of the school-fees will be abolished, people especially parents from low-income community were very ecstatic. They praised the so-called good gesture made by the gov. but only few realized that ‘the school-fees’ means RM 9 only. The parents still have to pay the books –fees (RM 130++) and the PIBG (RM 50++). So indirectly, people are being cheated and we teachers became the victims when the parents were in fury when they were told to pay (reality bites!).

2) Well, that’s not the end of it.. Since I am a form teacher, so I have the privilege to know the whole true about my students’ background. Quite surprising when I went through their application form, many or perhaps most of them are from low-income family – an average of household income is RM 600. Now, imagine this, most of the mothers are housewives which means they don’t have any income and they depend solely on their husbands’ money and they have 4 to 5 children. If 1 child, they need to pay around RM 180, then they need to fork out about …more than RM 600 ( I choose not to count) only for the school fees! No wonder the parents are complaining!

3) Thirdly, I also found out that family institution plays a vital role in shaping students’ behaviour and attitude. Quite a number of my students comes from broken family and most of them have discipline problems which eventually provoked me to become a monster – since I have to scold them most of the time..

4) Next, it seems that we have serious problems with our education system. Half of the students from remove class cannot converse in our national language and even worse are not able to identify the roman alphabets at all! They can’t even spell their parents’ name! I wonder what did they learn in their primary school...........

Actually there are so many other things that I have discovered after becoming a teacher for almost a year now. I do enjoy to educate people but at the same time I’m disappointed with the system. Please, buck up!

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Death to Israelis!!

Monday, January 21, 2008 | wardah bajrai




Son Of Mahmoud Zahhar Martyred Along With 19 Others In Zionist Massacre

"Labaika Ya Nasrallah"

"Hizbul wahid, Hizbullah!"

"Ya Allah, please shower your bless upon the innocent souls of Palestiniens..

Gaza – Ma'an – The death toll in the Gaza Strip on Tuesday has risen to 19 after two Palestinians were killed in an Israeli raid into northern Gaza City on Tuesday evening.

Just hours after the Israeli withdrawal from the Zeitoun neighbourhood of Gaza City, eyewitnesses said an Israeli rocket attack near the agricultural school left two people dead and several others injured.

Mu'awiyah Hassanein, the head of ambulance and emergency services in the Palestinian Health Ministry, said the injured were transferred to Beit Hanoun Hospital for treatment.

Earlier in the day Israeli tank fire killed 17 Palestinians, including five civilians and the son of senior Hamas leader Mahmoud Zahhar, in the Zeitoun neighborhood of Gaza City within four hours on Tuesday, witnesses and medics said. 13 of the dead are thought to be members of Hamas' Al-Qassam Brigades.

An estimated 50 Palestinians were injured.

Eyewitnesses said that Palestinian fighters exchanged fire with Israeli tanks and armored vehicles as they slowly pushed towards the eastern Gaza City neighborhoods of Ash-Shuja'iyya and Zeitoun.

Witnesses also said that Israeli bulldozers destroyed farmers' groves in the area.

Separately, witnesses said that Israeli military vehicles invaded the industrial zone near the Erez border crossing in the northern Gaza Strip.

The Gaza-Based Palestinian Center for Human Rights (PCHR) said that five Palestinian civilians were killed by what they called "indiscriminant" tank fire. According to PCHR, three farmers were killed: sixty-six-year-old As’ad Eissa Radwan Tafesh, twenty-two-year-old Marwan Sameer Ouda, and fifty-year-old Sa’id Mustafa al-Sammouni.

A Thirty-five-year-old car trader named Ayman Fadel Malaka, and a nineteen-year-old student named Abdul Salam Atiya Abu Laban, were also killed by Israeli fire, PCHR said.

Palestinian medics at Ash-Shifa hospital identified some of the dead resistance fighters: Rami Farahat, Ahid Ashur, Muhamad Abu Laban Badwan Auda, Khalil Mudallal, Mustafa Salim, Mustafa Yahya Silmi, and Khamis Abu Sawaween.

Mahmoud Zahhar is one of Hamas' founders and served as Palestinan foreign minister from 2006 to 2007. In September 2003, Zahhar's other son Khaled was killed in an Israeli airstrike that completely destroyed Zahhar's home in Zeitoun.

"This is one of the results of the Bush visit. He encouraged the Israelis to kill our people," Zahhar told reporters.

"What is going on in Gaza today is a shame for all of those who cooperated with [US President George W.] Bush, the criminal, and with the Zionists," Zahar said. "I am talking about all kings, presidents and ministers," he said, in an apparent criticism of Arab leaders who met with Bush.

"We are telling them, today they are killing our sons, tomorrow they are going to kill yours."

The official spokesperson of the Palestinian Presidency, Nabil Abu Rdainah, condemned the Israeli attack in the name of the Palestinian Authority (PA), calling the incursion "brutal" and "a criminal act." He said that such attacks will weaken the position of Palestinian negotiators in talks with Israeli officials. He called on the Israeli government to stop impeding the peace process.

Meanwhile Hamas' armed wing, the Al-Qassam Brigades claimed responsibility for shooting and killing a person in the Israeli kibbutz of Ein Hashlosha east of Al-Qarara in in the southern Gaza Strip.



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Sunday, January 06, 2008 | wardah bajrai

LADDERS

for John Heron

Some ladders go up some ladders
go down

It’s true! Of course all ladders intrinsically
go both ways

both up and down
though we prop one up to climb out of

somewhere or
put one down to climb down into somewhere

But in both cases we’d climb back down or
back up unless we can keep

going at the level we’ve climbed up or
down to without needing to return

The tall wind-blasted fairy-castle caves at
Capadoccia in Turkey have ladders going way up

then precariously down

We had to climb down to prophet Daniel’s
supposed tomb on Prophet Daniel Street in Cairo

then had to clamber precariously up

It all depends where we begin
down or up and where we need to go

up or down

Oh and take a ladder when you leave this poem
would you?

Climb up there and see if
anyone’s listening?

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