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sekilas pandang..

Friday, January 25, 2008 | wardah bajrai

susahkan bila kita terpaksa menidakkan sesuatu yang kita betul2 nak.. sesuatu yang we could never replace but still we have to say NO since we don't want to be a bad person... memang sakit bila benda tu ada di depan mata tapi de kerana rasa tanggungjawab...we just let it slips away... hard and very hurtful....

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We need to reform our system!

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Seriously…lately I’ve been posting things which are not directly related to me since I haven’t had the mood to talk bout myself. There’s nothing much to write. Everyday, things go the same for me. I have to deal with different sorts of situations in which eventually makes me realize that life is not always beautiful. Since most of my hours in a day I spend in school, I cannot help myself to write about all the fortunate and unfortunate events that happened in my dearest school.

Yes, schools have re-opened for almost a month now. So, its normal for me and other teachers like me to be extra-ordinary busy handling all the not-suppose-to-be-our-job works.. All the clerical works that wasted most of our precious time. But since the government pays my salary, and as an obedient gov-servant, I’ll do my works with ‘open heart’(though sometimes- and most of the time, I do complain), but so far, I’ve finished all the works assigned – a pat for me. And being a teacher gives me the opportunity to discover a lot of things that happened around me that I’ve never realized before. Things that manage to open my sleepy eyes. Among the things are:-

1) School fees- when the government announced last year that all of the school-fees will be abolished, people especially parents from low-income community were very ecstatic. They praised the so-called good gesture made by the gov. but only few realized that ‘the school-fees’ means RM 9 only. The parents still have to pay the books –fees (RM 130++) and the PIBG (RM 50++). So indirectly, people are being cheated and we teachers became the victims when the parents were in fury when they were told to pay (reality bites!).

2) Well, that’s not the end of it.. Since I am a form teacher, so I have the privilege to know the whole true about my students’ background. Quite surprising when I went through their application form, many or perhaps most of them are from low-income family – an average of household income is RM 600. Now, imagine this, most of the mothers are housewives which means they don’t have any income and they depend solely on their husbands’ money and they have 4 to 5 children. If 1 child, they need to pay around RM 180, then they need to fork out about …more than RM 600 ( I choose not to count) only for the school fees! No wonder the parents are complaining!

3) Thirdly, I also found out that family institution plays a vital role in shaping students’ behaviour and attitude. Quite a number of my students comes from broken family and most of them have discipline problems which eventually provoked me to become a monster – since I have to scold them most of the time..

4) Next, it seems that we have serious problems with our education system. Half of the students from remove class cannot converse in our national language and even worse are not able to identify the roman alphabets at all! They can’t even spell their parents’ name! I wonder what did they learn in their primary school...........

Actually there are so many other things that I have discovered after becoming a teacher for almost a year now. I do enjoy to educate people but at the same time I’m disappointed with the system. Please, buck up!

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Death to Israelis!!

Monday, January 21, 2008 | wardah bajrai

Son Of Mahmoud Zahhar Martyred Along With 19 Others In Zionist Massacre

"Labaika Ya Nasrallah"

"Hizbul wahid, Hizbullah!"

"Ya Allah, please shower your bless upon the innocent souls of Palestiniens..

Gaza – Ma'an – The death toll in the Gaza Strip on Tuesday has risen to 19 after two Palestinians were killed in an Israeli raid into northern Gaza City on Tuesday evening.

Just hours after the Israeli withdrawal from the Zeitoun neighbourhood of Gaza City, eyewitnesses said an Israeli rocket attack near the agricultural school left two people dead and several others injured.

Mu'awiyah Hassanein, the head of ambulance and emergency services in the Palestinian Health Ministry, said the injured were transferred to Beit Hanoun Hospital for treatment.

Earlier in the day Israeli tank fire killed 17 Palestinians, including five civilians and the son of senior Hamas leader Mahmoud Zahhar, in the Zeitoun neighborhood of Gaza City within four hours on Tuesday, witnesses and medics said. 13 of the dead are thought to be members of Hamas' Al-Qassam Brigades.

An estimated 50 Palestinians were injured.

Eyewitnesses said that Palestinian fighters exchanged fire with Israeli tanks and armored vehicles as they slowly pushed towards the eastern Gaza City neighborhoods of Ash-Shuja'iyya and Zeitoun.

Witnesses also said that Israeli bulldozers destroyed farmers' groves in the area.

Separately, witnesses said that Israeli military vehicles invaded the industrial zone near the Erez border crossing in the northern Gaza Strip.

The Gaza-Based Palestinian Center for Human Rights (PCHR) said that five Palestinian civilians were killed by what they called "indiscriminant" tank fire. According to PCHR, three farmers were killed: sixty-six-year-old As’ad Eissa Radwan Tafesh, twenty-two-year-old Marwan Sameer Ouda, and fifty-year-old Sa’id Mustafa al-Sammouni.

A Thirty-five-year-old car trader named Ayman Fadel Malaka, and a nineteen-year-old student named Abdul Salam Atiya Abu Laban, were also killed by Israeli fire, PCHR said.

Palestinian medics at Ash-Shifa hospital identified some of the dead resistance fighters: Rami Farahat, Ahid Ashur, Muhamad Abu Laban Badwan Auda, Khalil Mudallal, Mustafa Salim, Mustafa Yahya Silmi, and Khamis Abu Sawaween.

Mahmoud Zahhar is one of Hamas' founders and served as Palestinan foreign minister from 2006 to 2007. In September 2003, Zahhar's other son Khaled was killed in an Israeli airstrike that completely destroyed Zahhar's home in Zeitoun.

"This is one of the results of the Bush visit. He encouraged the Israelis to kill our people," Zahhar told reporters.

"What is going on in Gaza today is a shame for all of those who cooperated with [US President George W.] Bush, the criminal, and with the Zionists," Zahar said. "I am talking about all kings, presidents and ministers," he said, in an apparent criticism of Arab leaders who met with Bush.

"We are telling them, today they are killing our sons, tomorrow they are going to kill yours."

The official spokesperson of the Palestinian Presidency, Nabil Abu Rdainah, condemned the Israeli attack in the name of the Palestinian Authority (PA), calling the incursion "brutal" and "a criminal act." He said that such attacks will weaken the position of Palestinian negotiators in talks with Israeli officials. He called on the Israeli government to stop impeding the peace process.

Meanwhile Hamas' armed wing, the Al-Qassam Brigades claimed responsibility for shooting and killing a person in the Israeli kibbutz of Ein Hashlosha east of Al-Qarara in in the southern Gaza Strip.

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Sunday, January 06, 2008 | wardah bajrai


for John Heron

Some ladders go up some ladders
go down

It’s true! Of course all ladders intrinsically
go both ways

both up and down
though we prop one up to climb out of

somewhere or
put one down to climb down into somewhere

But in both cases we’d climb back down or
back up unless we can keep

going at the level we’ve climbed up or
down to without needing to return

The tall wind-blasted fairy-castle caves at
Capadoccia in Turkey have ladders going way up

then precariously down

We had to climb down to prophet Daniel’s
supposed tomb on Prophet Daniel Street in Cairo

then had to clamber precariously up

It all depends where we begin
down or up and where we need to go

up or down

Oh and take a ladder when you leave this poem
would you?

Climb up there and see if
anyone’s listening?

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