Why!why!

I notice since I started working, my writing style has changed. When I was unemployed, I had so much time that I could write almost anything and normally my entries would be light and not serious. In fact, I enjoyed writing it. Its like a remedy to cure my boringness and when I read back all the entries that I had wrote during my 'hibernate period', I still find it as relevant and enjoyable (maybe I perasan sorang-sorang je) but seriously, I wish I could produce entries like before. Maybe because during that time, I had less-pressure and I have too much time to think about almost anything.

Now, I find my entries were rather boring and it seems that I write something that comes from my pressured emotion-- maybe due to my tiredness and the unstoppable workloads. When I read back the entries, I feel dismay and I ask myself a question, "why on earth I write something like that?" . I need my mood back, I need to feel free again, I need to be able to write something that makes me happy. Not like now, all I did was using my writings as a medium to pour all my dissatisfactions, my sadness, my regrets and my-all-not-so-good stuffs. Does work make me less interesting person? Does work take all my sanity and mood? or is it merely because of my hormone and mood or perhaps because of my ageing age?

p/s: See! even this entry sounds distressful! Unlike my previous entries in friendster...